Former “Bachelor” star Colton Underwood revealed that he is gay in a sit-down interview with “Good Morning America” anchor Robin Roberts that aired Wednesday.
“I’ve ran from myself for a long time, I’ve hated myself for a long time. And I’m gay, and I came to terms with that earlier this year, and I’ve been processing it and the next step in all of this was sort of letting people know,” Underwood, 29, told Roberts.
“I’m still nervous but … it’s been a journey for sure,” he said.
Roberts remarked that “through the nerves, I can see the joy, I can see the relief.”
“I’m emotional, but I’m emotional in like such a good, happy, positive way,” Underwood responded. “I’m like the happiest and healthiest I’ve ever been in my life and that means the world to me.”
Underwood, a former football player, was first introduced to viewers in 2018 as a contestant on Becca Kufrin’s season of “The Bachelorette.” He then joined the cast of “Bachelor In Paradise” in Season 5, before becoming “The Bachelor” in 2019 for its 23rd season. Underwood was heavily marketed as “The Virgin Bachelor,” and his virginity was a major storyline throughout his season.
He dated Cassie Randolph, a contestant he met on that season, for a year and a half. After they broke up last year, Randolph filed a restraining order, accusing Underwood of stalking and harassing her, and filed a police report with claims that he had put a tracking device on her car. Later, Randolph got the restraining order dismissed and requested to drop the police investigation.
“I would like to say sorry for how things ended,” Underwood said. “I messed up. I made a lot of bad choices.”
Underwood said he really did love Randolph.
“If I’m being very honest, um, I loved everything about her and it’s hard for me to articulate exactly what my emotions were in going through that relationship with her was because I obviously had an internal fight going on.”
“I do think I could have handled it better,” he said of his time appearing on the franchise. “I just wish I hadn’t dragged people into my own mess of figuring out who I was.”
“At the same time, I can sit here and say I’m sorry to all of those women, I can also say thank you because without them and without the ‘Bachelor’ franchise, I don’t know that if this would have ever came out.”
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When Roberts asked if he had thought about harming himself during his struggle, he said he had.
“Yeah, there was a moment in L.A. that I woke up and I didn’t think I was going to wake up, I didn’t have the intentions of waking up. … Even beyond that is like even just suicidal thoughts and driving my car close to a cliff, like if this goes off the cliff it’s not that big a deal,” Underwood said. “I don’t feel that anymore.”
He said he’s had a “range of responses” from the people he has come out to, but “the underlining most common one was, ‘I wish you would have told me sooner,’ and when I hear that, I wish I would have had faith in my friends and my family a little bit more.”
He said his father has been overwhelmingly understanding.
“The only reason I’m sitting down with you today is that I have the love and support of my friends and my family,” Underwood said.